A Journal of Sorts

26 February 1999

My sister, my idol

My little sister has been on my idol list for as long as I've had an idol list. She tells me that some of the things I've been admiring her for are figments of my imagination, though. One of the things I was really, really, really impressed with her over was that she made her own wedding dress. I just found out a few months ago that she didn't make it; she had it made for her. Hahaha Anyway, in my striving to be more like her, I decided to make some curtains, place mats, etc. for the kitchen.She thinks I'm funny.

Now, I'm hoping she will be my gardening mentor. We have a family gathering place on the Internet called Family Point where we sort of keep in touch with the rest of the clan from time to time. She posted something recently about her azaleas. I have high hopes of being an azalea person before too many years go by so I'm hoping that she will give me some tips.

Actually, as idols go, she is probably my favorite. In reality, we know very little about one another. So what I do is imagine stuff to idolize her for. Any time I want to be motivated about anything, I can just make up that my sister can do it, therefore, so can I! I'll bet she doesn't know how good she is!

My daughter is also on my idol list for being such a good mom. I don't see how she manages to take care of four kids (and unlike MINE, they are good, well-adjusted kids), run that household, help with the ranch, keep a full time job and stay active in the church. She also stays in touch with the family and a few of her friends MUCH better than I do and dabbles in gardening. She is probably the least weird person I associate with, too.

I need to spend some time prioritizing and setting some short term goals. The long term ones are still about the same as they have been for years, with minor modifications from time to time, but the day to day stuff, the next week and next month stuff. . I need to work at it. Financial goals need to be reviewed. Daniel will be graduating next year with Jason just a few years behind, so there will be some additional educational expenses to budget in. My debt free goal needs to be reviewed and redefined to allow for some frivolous stuff. Of course, I need to get a job. . now THAT should be a priority.

I'm very angry with Jason's dad tonight. What has me ticked off at the moment is that he is hours late getting Jason for the weekend. No phone call, of course. While I'm being annoyed with him for that, I've decided to be annoyed with him for being so far behind on child support, too. I don't think I've gotten a dime out of him since October and his payments before then were sporadic. I told him I was going to turn him in for non-payment and let the courts deal with it, but I guess he didn't believe me. It appears that he was right since I haven't done that. Hahaha But when I'm angry with him, I think about it!

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