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A Journal of Sorts |
Thursday, 19 March 1999I'm famousI try very hard to not set expectations, to not get excited about things that simply might happen, but I'm a miserable failure at that. Ever since yesterday, when I got called in for that final interview on the dream job and he said to me, "We meant to make you an offer while you were here, but we forgot to check your references. Are you going to be home this afternoon or tomorrow? I'll call you", I've been sitting by the phone on pins and needles.At first, I was thinking about how much fun it will be learning the ropes in a new environment, how I was going to decorate my new office -- all the way down to the diplomas, the photographs and the cut flowers. Time passed and I moved into worry mode. You see, I don't deal well with waiting. When Tom is ten or fifteen minutes late coming home from work, I start with the maybe-he's-been-shot-in-a-robbery or maybe-he's-dead-on-the-side-of-the-road type of thinking. I just can't stop the worry, no matter how much I try to concentrate on other things and tell myself I have nothing to worry about. I wish I had a dollar for every time I thought one of the kids had been kidnapped and I worked myself up into an emotional frenzy, just because they didn't call me when I expected them to. Of course, they probably just got busy with some crisis or another and haven't had time to check the references yet, or folks haven't called them back, but it has been so long now that I'm wondering, "Is it possible that someone gave me a BAD reference? Did I piss someone off that I don't know about?" (Maybe putting my ex-husband on my reference list wasn't such a great idea, but after all, I DID work for him before we were married.) I finally broke down and called THEM and got put into voice mail . .sheesh, VOICE mail. Am I stressed or what? Just checked my blood pressure and it is 183/105. I guess it is! Every sales person who called today got my I'm-so-happy-to-hear-from-you voice. And for this I've stayed off the Internet all day. I have been browsing the journals again. I suppose I need to give my site some design thought. I have some ideas, but I'm going to have to learn something about javascript first. I don't know anything about it, but was thinking of using it with a mouseover to do a cast of characters. I enjoy browsing journals where I can look and see who all the diarist is talking about. (Since it looks like I'm not going to work next week after all, I should be able to find the time). I like my flowers and all; I like them a lot, but probably should come up with something much simpler for a journal. I got mentioned in Vicki Jean's journal yesterday!!!! She said my name!!!! I'm famous!!!! Ok . .I'll calm down now, but I must say . .I'm impressed. |
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